Tomorrow is a new day......

This will make sense in a minute......

Argh.  After having such a good day on Monday I had to blow it today!  I went out and about WITHOUT FOOD!!!!  DUH!!!!!  Well, I did pack 6 clementines - which I polished off quickly.  And I grabbed a hummus / pretzel thingy at the store.  Didn't realize until AFTER I'd downed it that it had TEN FREAKIN' POINTS IN IT!  And I ate that before 12:00!!!!!  So, when I was really hungry for lunch I grabbed a chicken thigh at the grocery store (yes - I broke a cardinal sin - I went grocery shopping HUNGRY!)  I was just going to eat the thigh and not the yummy, crispy skin, but then I caved and ATE THE WHOLE THING!  Shit. I also grabbed an 8 oz loaf of freshly baked bread and scarfed down HALF of it!!!!  WITH BUTTER!!!!! DOUBLE SHIT!!!!

THEN I got to the Horse N Rebel to drop off some stuff I'd bought at Costco (no - I did not have to do any squats there so that means I didn't SNACK!  YEAH!) I ended up making a YUMMY fresh mozzarella cheese / tomato / basil salad (snacked a little bit on it - I had to taste it ya' know!) THEN I dug into 2 of my chocolate chip cookies.  DAMN!!!!

Then I went home, cooked dinner (SURF 'N TURF -  14 FREAKIN' POINTS!), made cookies for the Horse N Rebel (ate one raw - DAMN!) and then I quickly brushed my teeth so I'd stop the bleeding!!!!

I'm embarrassed to admit that I ate 57 points today!  I'm now NEGATIVE 9 in the week with 3 more days to go!  Guess who is going to be the QUEEN of GOOD for the rest of the week?  Guess who is going to ZUMBA tomorrow and Thursday nights?  ME ME ME!!!!!!

Luckily tomorrow is a new day.  This isn't the end of the world.  Really.  It isn't, right????

Where in the hell have I been!?!?!?!??!

Well, I haven't 'been' anywhere actually - I've just been BUSY!  AIGH!  But busy is a good thing for me - it keeps me from pigging out!!!!

So, I'm at my lowest weight since I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer!  I weighed in on Saturday morning and was pleasantly surprised with 149.8!!!!!!  WOOT!!!!!!  I am officially in the 140s!!!!!  That means I've lost OVER SIXTY POUNDS!!!!!  HOLY HELL!!!!!  It seems like WEEKS that I've been saying 'this week I'll get to the 140s' and DAMN - it feels good to finally BE there!!!!  :)

This is what 150 lbs looks like on me!

I've been staying within my points every week, not having too many snack attacks (but I still have them!).  I've found that if I stuff my face with fruit at about 3:30 I don't tend to snack as I'm cooking dinner.  I'm satisfied.....  It's a good feeling!  Clementines are my friend.......

I started cooking at the Horse N Rebel in Starksboro.  That is a challenge.  I'm making yummy things like chocolate chip cookies, brownies, pulled pork sammies, bbq beef sammies, sweet 'n sour coleslaw, etc......  I'm chewing gum like a fiend when I cook, but I still found the time to eat a few cookies that I hadn't scheduled into my daily points balance.  I have little self control when it comes to chocolate chip cookies.  I also have found a GREAT way to eat pulled pork.  Instead of on a kaiser roll I put it on top of salad with a few crumbles of blue cheese & a little balsamic vinaigrette glaze on top.  YUMMY!!!!  I'll be cooking there several days a week.  Stop in and say hey (and of course grab a sammie!)

This Saturday is my ZUMBA instructor training class!  I am SO excited to become an instructor!  I'm really hoping that I can teach every morning!!!!  I'd rather get my workouts done in the morning than at night.  It's so hard to have to find a sitter for my kids while I go to the gym.  I feel like I'm gypping them of their time with me.  I only have them every other week, so I really try to spend as much time with them as I can!  They're such awesome little dudes!  They really are growing up so quickly!  It's hard to remember how little they were when they were babies.  I see babies and can't believe that mine were ever that small!  :)  I can't believe the hospital staff let me take them home with me!!!!!  But, I digress.......

I have less than 15 lbs left to lose - 14.8 to be exact!  I'm really hoping that my little plateau is just that.... LITTLE!  If I can lose 1 - 2 lbs a week I'll get to my goal in no time!  Currently I'm just doing Zumba, but I definitely see that I need to get my buns into the gym to lift weights a few times a week.  I'm not trying to be a muscle head or anything, but my butt is FLABBY and I want to tone it up!  I can't believe that *I* have a flabby butt!!!!  I think I'll try setting my phone to beep every hour - and every hour I'll do 10 squats & 10 lunges on each side.  If I can do 50 - 80 squats / lunges each day I'll firm that butt up in no time!  :)  Yeah - that will be my May resolution!  :)

I'm off to bed - need my beauty sleep ya' know!  :)