Is there an App for that???

Don't you wish there was an App for losing weight?  Don't you just wish it was EASY?  Well - I thought I wanted it to be easy, but you know what..... I really don't!

The EASY part was getting fat.  I did it without trying!  It just Freakin' HAPPENED!!!!!  It's like I was in the left lane of a super highway - I was just zooming along at high speed (mindlessly eating) & when I finally got to the exit I wanted I was going too fast to merge - I was TOO FAT!!!!  It ended up being a DISASTER!!!!  I was very overweight and didn't know where to start - so I just languished at 210 lbs for a while - INTERESTED in losing weight, but not COMMITTED.  Not by a LONG shot!!!!

I don't want losing my weight to be easy.  I want to have to struggle to lose this weight.  I need to remember, and I mean REALLY remember, how frickin' hard it is to lose 75 lbs!!!!!  If I keep this struggle in my mind I think it will be a lot easier to keep the weight from creeping back on!  I think that's why gastric bypass surgery often fails.  You don't LEARN anything - you just keep eating the same crap that got you in trouble in the first place - and BAM - you're fat again!  Let me tell you - I have learned!!!!!!  What have I learned?  Let me tell you!

I've learned that I NEVER want to be fat again!!!!!  I am getting so much JOY out of being thinner - and I'm still considered to be overweight (just not obese....)!  I'll catch my image in a mirror, or in the reflection off of glass, and I am amazed at the transformation!  I've worked hard & I can see the results AND I APPRECIATE them!!!!  I think that is the big thing - I really appreciate how hard it is to lose this much weight, and how GREAT I look!!!!  It's fun to get a second glance from someone.  It's fun to see someone you haven't seen in a while and they go "WOW!"  That is the kind of stuff that gets me STOKED!  :)  It's so exciting to image how I'm going to look in 20 more pounds.  It's exciting to look at some sexy lingerie or a cute bikini online and imagine it FITTING!  I've worn those damn 'old-lady' suits for too many years!  You know that one I'm talking about - with the 'cute' little skirt and the huge flowers all over it!!!!!  They are NOT cute!  :)  And they don't hide our big asses either.....  ;)

Anyhoo - I'm glad this is hard.  I'm learning how to live a healthy life.  I'm teaching my sons how to live a healthy life.  This is what it's all about!  :)

Nutritional Diary 3/22 29 PointsPlus
Breakfast:
     Jenn's Coffee (2 PP)
     Jenn's Oatmeal (5 PP) + 1 banana (0 PP)

Lunch:
     2 c. steamed zucchini (0 PP)
     1 serving leftover Butternut Squash Mac 'n Cheese (7 PP)

Dinner:
     4 1/2 oz. Sesame-Crusted Chicken Breast (5 PP) w/ 1 c. homemade mango salsa (0 PP)
     1 steamed artichoke (0 PP)
     1 T. light mayo (1 PP)

Snacks:
     1 Fiber One Bar Oats & Chocolate (4 PP)
     1 Weight Watchers Dark Chocolate Raspberry Bar (2 PP)
     1 cup coffee w/ 2 servings Coconut Milk Cream (0 PP) + 1 T. sugar (1 PP)
     1/4 c. Kix (1 PP)
     1/8 serving Butternut Squash Mac 'n Cheese (1 PP) + 10 squats (ate off of Preston's plate!!!)

P.S.  I just tried on my goal shorts - they're starting to fit pretty damn good!  :)