So - today I was BUSY!!!!! I called the vet to update them on Zyla's progress (had to report the poops and pees!!!!) and was told to call their other office to speak with the doggie surgeon. I called and was told they had a space for Zyla to have her surgery today! So, we brought her in for her bionic bones surgery! The last report was that she'd come through the surgery just fine. She ended up having a dislocated femur on the right side & a pretty smashed up acetabulum - the 'socket' that the femoral head (or 'ball') plugs in to on her left side. She had was is called a Femoral Head Ostectomy (FHO) - which is having the head of the femur cut off and the acetabulum repaired. Then her little muscles will start the process of healing and will actually compensate for her not having the ball & socket any more! AMAZING STUFF!!!!! Her prognosis is WONDERFUL!!!!! I can't believe this is the same little dog I thought was dead on Thursday night! We're so relieved..... I'm sure you can imagine!
One funny thing - in looking at her x-rays the vet determined that she has an extra vertebrae in her backbone AND her sacrum (tail bone) is missing one of the vertebrae that are usually fused together - so she's a little mutant! I always KNEW something wasn't quite right with her! HEE HEE!!!! There are times when she looks EXTRA long - we call her 'long dog'. I wonder if it has anything to do with her extra bone! :)
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| In this x-ray she is on her back, so the left side is actually her right, and vice-versa. |
Anyhoo - after that I had to run to SoBu for a bit of work (ate my lunch on the way up), then had to jet back to Lincoln to pick up the boys, bathe them, feed them, floss them, brush teeth, blah blah blah.... By the time all of that was done I was pretty damn hungry! I made a yummy salad, ate some other veggies & then had my requisite chocolate inhalation for the evening. Since then I've been researching FHO on youtube. I also got insurance with Progressive - their policies come with FREE PET INSURANCE!!!!! And their rates are quite comparable to what I was already paying. I hope I never need it - but it will be so good to have it!
The bad side of being so busy that I don't hog out is that I usually start to get so stressed about the smallest things that I sometimes just SNAP! I snap at my kids, I snap at Scott, I just... freakin'.... SNAP!!!!! I have this quick-to-anger temperament that I HATE about myself!!!! I want to be calm. I want to be like the other Mom's I see that just seem to have IT all together - whatever IT is!
Scott was mentioning today that as long as I have a 'cause' I'm happy. I guess he's kind of right. When I was diagnosed with breast cancer I made sure EVERYONE around me knew about my cancer, saw my boobs, felt them if they wanted to.... blah blah blah.... I was consumed by it.
When I was working on finding breast milk for my boys - same thing. It consumed me. I ate, slept, breathed donated milk! It was MY THING!!!!! (I should've had t-shirts printed up. Oh WAIT - I DID!!!!!) I had T-shirts printed up that had "TEAM TADPOLE" on the front & Mommy / www.feedmybaby.com on the back. Everyone that was involved in the birth had a shirt. Brandon's was "Daddy". Aunt Ali's was "Coach". Mom's was "Public Relations". Dad's was "Videographer". Yes - he videoed it. Nothing is sacred..... I can't remember what my brother's said. I didn't sell them, but I did use them to advertise my website (which is sadly no longer active - someone bought it and wants $1500 for it. Screw that!)
Now my cause is Zyla's care. With over $3000 of vet bills I need to find a way to pay for them! I'm thinking of t-shirts (they're gonna' be cute - trust me....) AND a pulled pork dinner fundraiser!!!!! I make some KILLER pulled pork. Really - I do!
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| Zyla before going into surgery |
Well, I was thinking about this today.... When does my cause get to be ME???? I don't really get time for myself. I'm always busy. Always doing something. Dishes, sweeping, laundry, folding laundry, picking it up off the damn floor. Now we're going to be full-time nursing care / physical therapists for Zyla. I spend so much time taking care of everyone ELSE in my life that I don't take care of ME!
At least I hadn't been taking care of me before.... Because now I am! I've made the commitment to lead a healthier life. I'm eating right. I'm cooking some VERY healthy meals.... It is second nature for me to track everything that goes into my mouth now. Absolutely automatic. :) I've been starting to exercise. Not as much as I'd like to - but sugaring season, and now Zyla, has trumped exercise. That does NOT mean I'm going to stop! In fact, I'm going to try like hell to get to Zumba on Wednesday night. (Unfortunately I can't tomorrow night as we're getting Zyla tomorrow afternoon and we'll have to settle her in at home). I also would like to get to the gym to lift weights on Thursday. But, if I don't, I'm going to do some weight training at home. And then I've got Zumba on Saturday morning too. I'm fitting exercise in. Once sugaring season is over it will be a LOT easier for me to do some of my evening classes.
I've also GOT to carve out some personal time for me. Time for just reading a book, or taking a spring walk, or just taking a poop without someone NEEDING me. I think that is the hard part. It is nice to be needed, but sometimes it just isn't. Sometimes you just want to be left the hell alone and not hear ANYTHING related to being a caregiver! (Especially when you've got to poop!)
So - I'm going to give that some thought and try to figure something wonderful out. Maybe it will take the shape of getting a babysitter every Saturday night and just going somewhere. Maybe it will be leaving the boys with Scott and going for a night time walk with my dogs. Who knows.... but DAMN - I need to figure this out!!!!!
Ok - I was about to post my nutritional diary - but I haven't eaten anything 'dramatic' or super delicious yet this week. So, in the interest of time (and so I can have some ME time before I go to bed) I'll just post my total PP for each day. Deal? Deal!
3/19 - 40 PP
3/20 - 44 PP (remember the wings??? I sure do!)
3/21 - 33 PP
G'night!
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