My Boobs are getting BIGGER!!!!

Most of the time when you lose weight your boobs get smaller - NOT ME!!!!  I kind of touched on this before, but I was diagnosed with breast cancer in July 2002 & had a double mastectomy in September 2002.  I decided to get implants so I wouldn't 'feel' like a breast cancer patient, and then I had them tattooed with some very awesome lizard areolas some years after that.  Well, the end result is boobs that stay the exact same size!!!  So, as I'm getting smaller my boobs appear to be getting bigger!!!!  SCORE!!!!!  :)  Big plus - when I'm old my boobs will never sag!!!  Perpetually perky!!!  :)

I just dug this picture out of the archives and I realized this was after I gave birth to my youngest son, Preston.  So, I think I weigh about the same (or ever a bit less) than I did when these were taken!  So exciting!

I was thinking about this today.... When you start Weight Watchers they have you calculate 10% of your weight as your first weight loss goal instead of going right for your 'real' goal.  I weighed 210.2 so my first goal to lose was 21 lbs.  That meant that my first goal weight was 189 lbs.  Once you hit that goal they then have you choose 10% again, which was 170 for me.  I hit that right around Christmas.  My next 10% goal is 153 - and I'm VERY close to that!  I weighed in this morning (after FINALLY having some good poops - TMI I know.....) and I was 157.0!!!!!  So, 4 more pounds and I'll be hitting my THIRD 10% goal!!!!  After that I have 1 more 10% goal to get myself to 138 and then just 3, small, tiny, insignificant pounds and I will be able to proudly say that I reached my REAL goal weight of 135!!!!

When I first starting thinking about 135 it seemed like I would never EVER be able to lose that much weight!  I tried to think of excuses of why my goal weight should be higher than that (I'm very muscular, I'm 40, I have big bones - I just LOVE that one - BIG BONES!!!!  Give me a break!!!)   Seriously, my goal was to lose just over 75 lbs!!!  HOLY SHIT!!!!  That is like losing a second grader that is hanging on to your ankles Every... Single... Day....  That seemed daunting to me.  It STILL seems daunting to me - and I'm over 2/3 of the way there!!!  It's really easy to talk yourself into failing when you have that much weight to lose!  You come up with every excuse in the book as to why you won't be able to do it.  It's too hard, I don't have the time, I'm scared, blah blah blah.  We guess what - IT IS HARD.  BUT, I HAVE TO MAKE THE TIME!!!!  Yes - IT IS SCARY!!!!!  BUT, if I don't do this I will be cheating myself out of a lot that my life has to offer.  I mean COME ON - I had breast cancer at age 31, had both of my breasts cut off and I can't lose a measly 75 lbs!!!!  This is CAKE compared to cancer!  My kids deserve to have me nagging over their shoulders for a LONG TIME!!!!!  Dammit - *I* deserve to be able to live a very full, exciting & wonderful life.  I don't want to cheat myself out of ONE SECOND of it!!!!

CHECK THIS OUT:  A friend of mine, Paula Traynor, is blogging about her weight loss and she's lost nearly 125 lbs!  She's a new mom, has a million jobs & is training for a 1/2 marathon all at the same time.  She posted a picture of herself at her heaviest - 298 lbs.  She just posted a picture of her now - at 175 and she looks AMAZING!!!!  Like seriously - un-freakin-believable!!! http://paulatraynor.blogspot.com/2011/02/what-difference-123-pounds-can-do.html?spref=fb  She's been such an inspiration to me!

Breakfast:
     Blueberry Banana Pancakes (I made 3 pancakes with 3/4 c. of batter for 7 PP), 1 T. maple syrup (1 PP)
     Jenn's Coffee (2 PP)

Lunch:  I wasn't very hungry for lunch today.  I ate my pancakes pretty late so I just had a banana.  (0 PP)

Dinner:  Taco-ish salad with 1 c. Arugula (0 PP), 1 c. spring mix (0 PP), 1 tomato (0 PP), 1 oz. gouda cheese (3 PP), 3 oz. local grass-fed beef (3 PP), 1 T. maple syrup mixed with balsamic vinaigrette glaze (1 PP), 1 soft corn tortilla shredded on top of salad (2 PP)

Snacks:
     2 Rold Gold Honey Wheat braided twists dipped in 1 T. melted chocolate chips (2 PP)
     a few bites of mac 'n cheese (1 PP + 10 squats)
     6 dark chocolate covered cranberries (3 PP + 20 squats)
     2 clementines (0 PP)

Funny story - Grayson got the dark chocolate covered cranberries out of the cabinet and shared some with his brother.  Then he gave me a small handful and said "Here Mama".  I can't say no to my kids so I took them, thanked him, then stuffed them in my mouth.  He then started laughing maniacally and said "Do Your Squats!!!!"  Little stinker!

Total PP for the day:  26

So, I still have 3 PP left for the day.  I think I'm going to brush my teeth and get to bed and be happy that I didn't go over on points!  Tomorrow I have my two boys PLUS two of their friends over to play.  It's going to be a busy day at my house and I need to get a good night sleep so I don't end up stress eating tomorrow!  WISH ME LUCK!