A little history.....

First a little history.....

I started my weight loss journey on 6/2/2008 at 5'2" and 210.2 lbs. I don't care who you are - that is FAT!!! I honestly don't remember getting that fat! It's like I just woke up one day and looked at myself in the mirror and went, "Whoa!". Well, maybe it really didn't go like that. I was getting lazy. I didn't care about myself anymore. I had pretty much given up on being a 'hot mom'. I stopped shaving my legs. I showered infrequenly. Not very glamourous, eh?

Well, a friend of mine knew that I was unhappy at the weight I was at and mentioned Weight Watchers to me. I'd tried it once before, as a Valentine's Day gift to my husband (now ex-husband) after my second son was born. We did 'ok' at it, but we weren't super dedicated. Well, this time I was READY! I was gonna' lose ALL of it, and FAST!!!!! And I did good too! I lost 3 lbs my first week, then 3.2, then 1.8 the next.... In 2 months I'd lost 20 lbs! WOOT! And by October 27th I was down 30 lbs!!! WOW!!! THIS WORKS!!!!! Well, then I started getting in trouble. I got to 177.0 on December 15th, 2008 and then in early 2009 I stopped going to WW. I was a meeting hound and then I lost my job, so I wasn't in town and I just... stopped... going.... Not so good for my weight loss. :(

I futzed around for a while, went to the gym, didn't go to the gym, and slowly.... ever so slowly.... the weight started to creep back up. GRRRRrrrrr....... I got to the point that I didn't weigh myself anymore because I really didn't want to know what the scale said! I kindof, sortof pretended I was 'doing' Weight Watchers again, but I really wasn't. I even bought an iPhone so I had no REASON not to track my foods, and STILL didn't do it! I guess it is a very mental game you play with yourself. I was with a man that loved me, even if I WAS a bit heavy.... He fell in love with me when I weighed 184 lbs, so I guess I tried to rationalize that I didn't need to lose weight because of that.

The DOWN side of being heavy: It's hard as HELL to be a good parent! It's hard to convince your kids to go outside and play when all you wanted to do was sit your fat ass on the sofa and drink a lemonade & eat chocolate chip cookies! It's hard to 'sex yourself up' and look like a HOTTIE when you're out on the town!!!!! It just plain old SUCKS to go shopping for clothes because nothing (and I truly do mean nothing!) looks good on you!!!! Why in the WORLD the fashion industry things that fat women look good with bows and flower-thingys hanging off of your clothes is BEYOND ME!!!! :)

So - I needed to lose weight. Like for real.... Not just to look like a hottie (although I will admit, that is a good reason!), or to be attractive to my boyfriend, but really for ME! I want to live to be an OLD LADY! I want to see my kids grow up to be amazing men! I want to be able to be active & play outside with them instead of having to sit on the sidelines because I'm too fat, out-of-shape, sore, etc etc etc.....

So, in September I started tracking my weight, just to see where I was. I was NOT impressed with what I saw on the scale! On 9/18/2010 I weighed 184.4 - just about where I was when I met my boyfriend. I started weighing in pretty regularly, but I wasn't tracking my food. I was eating healthier, but I still wasn't keeping myself accountable. That went ok for a while. By Christmas I weighed 166.6 - so I'd lost 17.8 lbs! YEAH ME!!!!

I felt I needed a way to keep myself more accountable. Twenty-five pounds seemed so CLOSE!!!! As in - really attainable, so I decided on 1/1/11 to start 'doing' Weight Watchers again. NO excuses!!!!! In fact, I decided to do WW again because of my Mom!!! She told me that all fruits and most veggies are considered ZERO POINTSPLUS!!!! YEAH!!!

So, I weighed in at 166.6 (yes - I managed to maintain over Christmas!!!), but maintenance wasn't going to get me to my next goal of 25 lbs!!!! Since that weigh-in I've faithfully tracked my foods (yes - even the days that I eat lots of cookie dough when I'm making cookies for my parents (yeah, right - they're really for me!)) and I've kept myself within my weekly PointsPlus budget. And guess what!?!??! I just hit my 25 lb mark and ALSO my 50 lb mark!!!! I only have 25 more to go and I'll be at my goal!!!! Do you know how stinking EXCITING that is?!?!?!? The first 25 lbs came off easily, the SECOND 25 lbs came off easily so I KNOW the last 25 will too!!!! In fact, this blog is my way to keep myself accountable. I'll share my daily meals (with recipes), my celebrations, my set-backs (yes - I know I'll have them!), but I will do it!!!